What I Miss…

– Writing and /or blogging
– Reading actual paperback / book
– Surfing the net to learn something new
– Doing hobbies
– Arts and crafts and being creative (subjective, SO no judging pls)
– Deciding for myself and others…
-… and feeling good about it…
-…and not being belittled despite the process nor the results;
– Having confidence on myself (even a little)
– Deciding based on my personal judgment and not based on what is expected of me nor because it is what I am told
– Not second – guessing myself
– Being financially capable despite the little money I have
– Spending time with my family
– Spending money on them (not necessarily I spend much)
– Saying No just to avoid explaining myself and avoid conflict
– Saying Yes to what makes me happy
– ME, MYSELF, I (*@₱&_%?!)

At The Moment

It’s ten minutes before midnight…

Am sitting on the bench by the poolside of our condo’s kiddie pool..

A commercial plane has just passed me…

A stray cat is drinking the pool water…

Drinking my tall espresso frapp from Starbucks..

A slice of chocolate cake in its box is lying beside my drinks…

A man is browsing his cellphone while walking towards the car park, coming from his workout session…

A light wind is blowing my hair, caressing my body…

The pool waters dancing to the rhythm of the winds as the trees and plants sing to its melody…the hushing music bringing calmness to my being…

Am sitting on the bench by the poolside of our condo’s kiddie pool jotting random thoughts.

Am alone here, obviously because it’s already late.

I was craving for something sweet since this morning so while waiting for the little girl to fall asleep I decided to go down to the coffee shop, eat a slice of cake and watch my series.

But since there was no available seat inside the coffee shop, I decided to just sit here and have some me time before doing some works.

And am I glad that I did!

Sitting by myself here, I was able to enjoy the moment, calm some nerves, write something albeit just randomness, and feel pure peace and innate happiness.

I have been struggling at work for the past several months and affected my time with my family, for myself. I have been doubting myself , making me feel alone and empty.

Sitting here on the bench by the poolside of our condo’s kiddie pool while jotting down those random activities brings a smile to my face and a certain joy and peace to my soul.

Thank you wind, bench, stray cat, plane, trees, plants and pool waters.

Thank you for this moment, Lord! Thank you for sitting beside me.

Let’s have this Fika time more often, shall we?

My Birthday Bucketlist/Wishlist 2018

Every year, just before my birthday, I write a list of things I want to do/experience (initially) on or just around my birthday, until I add those material things I want to buy or receive as gift.

This has been a yearly thing of some sorts but I dont know why I even write one.  Guess, it has become a ‘psychological habit’.

For this year, I’d like to share with you my list:

* Go on afternoon tea at Peninsula Makati

* Drink at Sunset Bar

* Staycation at Sofitel Manila

* Dinner at Spiral

* Facial

* Massage

* Body scrub

* Warts removal

* Drink at rooftop bar

* Dessert at Peninsula – Pen Pals

* Sleep at EDSA Shangrila

* Dinner with my and Joseph’s families together

* Treat my bestfriends in an intimate dinner and wine and cheese

* Mass at Pink Sisters Tagaytay

* Weekend at home alone (without anyone going in/out)

* Laptop – The Hubby bought me one – as of 6/1

* Camera

* Smart TV

* A personal ‘office-style’ space at home

                        

* Beach getaway

* Me time for a few days/Alone time; If only I have the courage to travel again by myself

* Moxie shoes!!!! – updated 5/23

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Sab Celebrates Year One

Few months before Sab’s first birthday, J and I were torn between throwing her a party or going on a family trip.

Since Sab had a small and intimate Christening, in my mind, we would throw her a sort of coming out party to introduce her to relatives and friends.

J, on the other hand, considered his youngest brother’s invitation to spend Sab’s birthday with him and his wife in Singapore.

With some considerations, we finally decided not to throw her a party.

Instead we opted on weekend-long celebration for her.

We booked an overnight staycation at Seda Nuvali on the exact day of her birthday (Thursday-Friday).  This was our first trip just the three of us (but, of course, with the Ate who takes care of her).  To maximize our days, I planned  of going to Tagaytay in the morning before check-in and walk around Nuvali after check-out.

To celebrate with my side of the family, we invited my Mom’s siblings and their families, a couple of her cousins and her maternal aunt and, of course, my sister and her family, for lunch on Saturday.

On Sunday night, we had dinner with J’s family in Greenbelt.

Its All About Faith

This year has been full of challenges: mentally, financially, physically, emotionally and spiritually.

Im not a devout Catholic but I believe in God. However, half of the time, my faith wavered.

I have been struggling.

Deep inside I know that everything happen for a reason. But since I dont know and understand what the reason was, I wavered and question Him.

Over the weekend, my faith has been tested.

Since the Hubby and I are financially-challenged recently, I prayed that I would win the cash raffle in our party. I’ve never been lucky in those raffles so I just prayed. At the start of the party, I wasnt thinking of it seriously. I told myself that if I didnt win, God had other plans for me. When they started flashing the winners of the minor cash prize winners, I was very surprised to see my name and employee number! I WON!! I was very happy and deeply thankful that night. I won the smallest cash prize and it wasnt enough to pay the bills but it was sufficient in God’s perspective so I was more than okay with that.

On our way home after the party, we were caught in a road accident.

It’s Always About Faith

This year has been full of challenges: physically, mentally, financially, emotionally and spiritually.

And I’m still in the middle of it all.

During this time, the only one I can rely on is God. But half the time, my faith wavered. I wanted to believe that God was with me but it was hard when I couldn’t feel him and couldn’t understand his reasons.

Then this weekend..

#QOTD – 03 Dec

It’s The Most Wonderful Time of the Year 🎄

Mom’s 62nd

Mom celebrated her 62nd birthday last Monday.

As my ‘special gift’ for her, I made Flipagram video video which I posted in Instagram and Facebook.

To celebrate her special day, we dined in at Vikings at SM Megamall.  Here are our photos:

the birthday girl

random pics

 

 

Happy birthday, Mom!

Thursday…

Just got back from the Hubby’s birthday trip. Will blog about it soon (fingers crossed!!!). For now, lets enjoy the day!