First Time

Feb 10 2015

My Precious One,

I am here now at Starbucks Megastrip waiting for our first OB visit together.

Am writing to you to let you know that I am happy with your arrival. Though we still yet to confirm your life in my tummy (that’s why we are going to the doctor), I can feel YOU now inside me. Call it Mother’s Instinct.

I’d like to believe that you came at the right time. After your Dad and I got married and after we learned if your Mom’s special condition, my heart and mind were split whether I personally can conceive and raise a child. Please don’t get me wrong. I want you! But my special condition sort of scared me if I can physically carry you for nine months and raise you as a well-rounded baby and child. Every time I prayed to God, I just told Him to give you to me at His perfect time. NOW is the perfect time.

I still had a mixed-up feelings when I realized my period was delayed. I was doubting if I can really be a mother. But when I felt symptoms of my period, I felt sad. I wanted to have you. Forget my condition, forget our financial dilemma, forget all my fears and doubts. I just want to have you!

In a bit, I’ll you about our encounter.

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February 2015
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