Dear Family…

Dear Family...


I feel hurt.  Yes, you read it right.

As much as I try to post positive entries, I just have let this that in a day or two, I might feel better.  And I still hope you’ll learn or realize a thing from this.

I am hurt by someone super close to me, someone I’ve had rows before but after a day we just laughed it off.  For the past year this person has hurt me with her words and actions for more than I can bear.  Intentional or not, words once spoken cannot be taken back and the damage done, or in my case, the hurt of being judged, even when its true, still breaks my heart.  It hurts more because it was said by one of my closest person, someone I love.  Second, I never expected to hear that word from that person, someone considered family.  And, I never judged that person when he/she ‘experienced something’ four years ago.

I am not sure if I should let this go, or if I can let this go.  I want to forgive and forget but how can I teach that person to respect me if he/she thinks and feels that he/she can say things to me anytime since it doesnt bother me anyway.

I want to forget this.  But I need to heal first.  But I dont know how. 

It’s Called Faith



Do It!



My Girls Said Yes!!

After several weeks of hesitating, I finally had the courage and confidence to ask my friends to be my bridesmaids!

And they all said Yes!!

When I was younger and my friends were starting to get married, I told myself that my bridal party would just be the remaining single ladies. In recent years, though, I told myself that I would just get one from highschool and one from college. How I was going to choose? Drawlots!!! Hahaha! Sssshhh…tHe real reason was except for one, all my bestfriends are married now which means I wouldnt have bridal entourage! Lol!!

While planning this wedding, though, something changed! I wanted ALL my bestfriends with me!! But since I didnt want them shouldering the gowns, I hesitated asking.

Anyways since they all agreed, I am now writing this entry.

From highschool: Cat, Che, Jane. If only Jeng were here, she will definitely be with us!
From college: Anne, Cris, Ryah.
These two groups know me inside out and even though I dont get to see them often, these ladies are for keeps!

I also have two additional: Candy and Majo who are both J’s friends. Majo was instrumental in our courtship while Candy is part of our love story (she has been with from day 1 and who, together with her family, is our constant companion and travel buddy.

I want everything simple but different for our wedding. So when I was searching the net for pegs of their gowns, I was attracted to non-traditional dresses (at least here in the Philippines).

Below are my pegs:


However, I discovered that my fiance is the traditional type! So at the end we decided on a traditional chiffon cocktail dresses. Its ok atleast it passed the ‘simple’ requirement! 🙂

Hello, December!


my favorite month ♥♥♥

December 2013